Everyone has semi-conscious parts of their mind, irrational irks and fears, that dust their thoughts with doubt or guilt or anger sometimes. We all try to push them away, or rationalize them into silence. It never works.
But I’m a mage. And despite all my talk about embracing the hard way, I like a shortcut too. Here’s how to use magick to handle your monsters / negative thought patterns:
Find the thought paths from the negative thought process to your conscious mind. Use a physical effect to prepare your nerves, then a mental effect to activate the paths. Conscious mind will start talking with the thought process and resolve the issue.
The effect is for experienced mages. You’ll need dedicated mental areas for mental effects and physical effects. I’ve left out the technical details to get on with the impact.
The thought processes I worked with had 2 problems:
1. It had something to say, and I didn’t listen. Havi talks about this a lot.
2. Its worldview was a relic from childhood. It worried about things that were scary and difficult then, even though they had become safe and easy.
Connecting the semi-conscious thought process to conscious mind starts a dialog. First, conscious mind listens until the monster stops freaking out. Then, conscious mind explains how the world is different, and lets the thought process connect to memories and plans and concepts that show what has changed.
I had a monster that worried I wasn’t preparing before quitting my job. Conscious mind showed it my plans, and it relaxed.
I had another, constantly on guard for the kind of arguments my father would make, that made me pick fights with my girlfriend. Conscious mind showed it that most people interact differently than my father, and it stopped worrying.
I watched these interactions to gain insight into myself, but didn’t have to drive the decisions. It was all automatic.
Afterward, the negative thought process becomes positive. As a child, each thought process did something good. It made you plan before acting. It protected you from bullying. It was good. It only became unhealthy when it applied old behaviors to a new world.
After updating its worldview, the negative thought process continues its original goal, adjusted to your new needs in the adult world. It ensures I have adequate plans, but focuses on areas I’ve ignored. It focuses on the type of person I’m talking with when determining how much to be on guard, and makes sure I am on guard with bullies. It becomes a healthy part of my psyche, rather than a source of doubt and fear and guilt.
1. I had thought these changes were subtle. My girlfriend said it was like living with a new person. Particularly how I react to things that frustrated me before, like her asking questions about magick that I couldn’t answer.
2. I dealt with some monsters the morning I quit my job. Mostly about pleasing my parents (by having a normal job) and lessons about timidity I learned from them. Quieting those doubts let me focus on the big choices that really mattered.
3. Doing the same effect on a positive thought process makes it speak up more. You can enhance the voice that drives you to do what’s healthy instead of what’s fun, or that loves your girlfriend despite an argument.
This is the kind of result that makes me accept all the failures it took to get here.